[christiers]

Originally Posted by ladyjane

I am so sorry, Christie. I cannot imagine how painful it was for you to write that post. I sat crying as I read it.
I want to thank you for your courage in sharing your story. Perhaps it will help another.
Hugs to you.

Thank you LJ. I just re-read my post and noticed my many errors...the sad part is I edited it. It is painful, as well as therapeutic all at the same time. I couldn't talk about it for years. I still cry on her birthday and Christmas. My poor DH tried to make things better the second Christmas by decorating by himself and putting her ornaments and stockings away in their own container and back into the Holiday decorations closet in the basement. BIG MISTAKE. But he is still with us. I wish I had known of YT back then, I imagine I would have gotten advice to do the MRI, opinions that may have opened my eyes. Unfortunately, through my experience with Gidgi it has taught me to be more assertive and a better advocate.....that will benefit all babies I ever have the pleasure of sharing their lives with. I will always have that "too little too late feeling" about her though AND I wouldn't wish that on my WORST adversary. I hope this helps the OP, it not....then hopefully it helps someone else, the tears I have shed with these two posts will be well worth it IF it helps just one baby. Steroids are amazing, I imagine the situation would have deteriorarted much more quickly without them. They worked so well, I honestly believed she was better.

Thank you again LJ for reading about my first precious little angel.