I finally sent my little boy away last night. I am so so heartbroken. Last night was so incredibly hard to sleep without him stuck to my side and his head on my pillow. And today is going to be so incredibly difficult to go home without him jumping up and down for me.
I know he's in good hands, he cuddled with my sister all last night. And this morning went for a nice walk with my mom. They have a nice backyard where he can run around and play with my parents' dogs (they have a yorkie mix and a shih tzu). I know it's silly to be sad. I can go see him whenever I want, he is only 6hr drive away. Then why am I so so sad???? It almost feels like I let him down. Or did I let myself down? They said he sat behind the door for the first couple of hours, hoping that I would go and get him, but then he gave up after that and went and slept in my sister's bed. It killed me when they told me that.
We took some photos of him before he went away..... |