Aw, geesh. I have been in jobs where I HATED them - just despised them. And when you spend 8 hours of your life per day there - it's incredibly spiritually draining, you know? Just debilitating. All I can say is, keep looking for something else - which I know is exhausting too. And try to do small things to help nurture yourself too, like - at night before you go to bed, right down 3 things your'e grateful for. Maybe it sounds dumb - but during really hard times, it can at least keep you connected to a few good things in your life.
