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12-31-2006, 09:30 AM | #1 |
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| what to do i have a very messed up family i guess. I am wanting to reslove some things with 2 ppl in particular but im like a kid to be honest and HATE confrontation. my dad that i thought was my real dad actually isnt....i found this out about a year ago after my step brother told my HUBBY at my grandpas funeral. Jeff told me. i now realize that maybe thats the reason why i had been treated the way i was but i dont know. My real dad is dead i guess. Died from Cancer about 2 yrs ago. and than my "dad" only comes around when something is needed for him. He makes me feel guilty and I always run down and take care of him. He was back from his job for 2 WEEKS and i didnt call or go down and i was trying to see how long it would take him to call me....2 days before he left for another year..he called and said better come down today or sat as im leaving sunday and thats it...no coming in here, no saying hi to my kids...nothing so i DIDNT..i didnt go running down there,, he really hurt my feelings. mind you i HAVE NOT told him that i know about him adopting me. so he didnt call on Christmas, hasnt called atall. SHould I make the first move or see how long it takes him? second question: my mother.. i use the term very loosly, LEFT me when i was 7.. i went to "dads" for the weekend come home and she was gone. no bye, hugs nothing. i couldnt find her for years. after 22years my grandfather passed away and jeff and I went up there for the funeral in wisconsin...first words out of her mouth was "airlines lost my baggage". no hello, no how you been, nothing and i was just mortified that she had no remorse at all for what she did. nothing! I stayed away from her knowing that if i didnt i would probably beat the holy crap out of here and considering the circamstances and respect i have for my grandmother i didnt say anything. I have alot of issues in my life and my husband seems to think i need to talk to the ppl in person and tell them exactly how i feel... i personally dont think itll do much good considering ill still feel like crap. alot of things i do in my life i stem from my childhood. when me and jeff have problems i try to run to avoid confortation. THats why alot of times i dont asnwer pms or dont answer at all. call me a kid or whatever you want but my "dad" is a bad alcoholic and i went thru some stuff that no kid should ever have to experience. anyways do you think i should "rock the boat" or just let it be and be my messed up self for ever??? sorry so long.....im trying to make a gret year for 2007 and think i really need to get some things out in the open. I consider you all my friends and i hope you feel the same. |
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12-31-2006, 09:42 AM | #2 |
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| Kristy...I'm not going to go into a lot of detail here but...if you think you should make the first move then you should. Have you considered that maybe the people you have such hard feelings for may feel just as awkward as you about speaking up? What if no one ever does? Life is too short to play games with your emotions...if you know your Dad is around...call him! As for your Mom...maybe those were her first words because she was nervous and didn't know what else to say? Don't always take things so personal...keep an open mind, consider how or what other people might be feeling and do what you feel is the right thing to do. I know how much baggage a person can carry from their child hood. We were foster parents for years and believe me...I've seen and heard just about everything a person can do to a child...physically and emotionally! I also know that my kids didn't get over, past or through things without the help of a good counselor and it was amazing to see the transformation some of them went through. Good luck with your family...sometimes all it takes is for someone to make a tiny gesture and everything else falls into place...but someone has to be first. I hope it isn't too late for you all to work things out. |
12-31-2006, 11:15 AM | #3 |
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| Call me the bad guy ,but I will say it anyways. You use excuses of lifes ups and downs to justify what you have done to others here at YT. I for one have sympathy for people that do others wrong.And I think others are starting to see the light also. |
12-31-2006, 11:32 AM | #4 |
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| Kristy...perhaps you at a turning point in your life and you are beginning to realize that at some point you have to accept that we all make concious decisions to either be happy nor not. No matter what crap you were dealt in childhood, you are now an adult and it is more than time to put this behind you and take responsibilities for all your actions from this point forward. You can never change what happened and no one can ever make it right, but you can choose to learn and move on or stay stuck in a cycle of blame/guilt/shame. It might be a good time to seek out a therapist to further put things into perspective. Please don't waste any more of your life worrying about your past. Make your future what you want it to be!! May 2007 be the year for you......
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12-31-2006, 11:44 AM | #5 | |
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Great post! | |
12-31-2006, 11:50 AM | #6 |
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| I would suggest Robin McGraws book Inside My Heart, her childhood wasn't perfect either and she gives great advice about choices. Next, I don't think confronting anyone is going to help the situations at all. You need to talk with a therapist that can help you deal with all those feelings and emotions and put them in the proper perspective.
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12-31-2006, 11:57 AM | #7 |
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| Yep, Jodi that was a wonderful post! Kristy lots of people have had not so great childhoods, but that is over and now you are grown up and have a child(ren). It is now up to you to be the responsible adult and to do what you have to be happy with yourself. Either speak to these people and clear the air, or decide to put them in your past, but either way your own family you have now comes first and you being happy with the person you are goes a long way to helping your family be happy. There are free counseling places out there....find them and be the person YOU want to be. YT is a wonderful place and there are many caring people here that will listen, but I think for your situation right now, the internet is not going to be your best source of help! 2007 is a new year, I hope it is a great one for you Kristy!!
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12-31-2006, 11:59 AM | #8 |
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| I Agree with Luvmysissy. There is only so long you can use your child hood as an excuse for your poor decisions. As she said there comes a time when we have to make a conscious decision about our own lives. Even if you had the worst parents in the world and they were terrible role models, you are an adult now, look around you, see how other people do things, choose some good role models. Growing up doesn't just happen, we have to make that decision, and then when you are confronted with an issue, ask your self, "what would so and so do?" The fact that you are asking here, shows that you do value other peoples opinions, and you are trying to do things right. As for confronting the other people. That is up to you, if it will make you feel better than go ahead, but if you don't believe it will make any difference then why put yourself through it. I believe in you, but you need to believe in yourself. |
12-31-2006, 12:06 PM | #9 | |
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Most of the time, if you thought you had issues before, wait 'til a therapist gets through with you, and you're sure to have issues. (JMO) Personally I feel that finding a good mentor, someone you respect and admire, could be more beneficial than a paid therapist. | |
12-31-2006, 12:17 PM | #10 | |
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12-31-2006, 12:23 PM | #11 |
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| I'm sorry for your horrible childhood. I'm sure that a good portion of us had a less-than-wonderful one too, myself included. I decided long ago that to continue giving "those people" any mental energy or emotion was to allow them to continue to abuse and neglect me. I have had no therapy, though frankly I could probably use it. Making sure my children know that they are loved and valued IS my therapy, and it's what keeps me from dwelling in the past hurts. If you feel that it's necessary to confront your "mother" and "father", then doing it in writing may be your best bet. That way, you can "say" what you want without interruption or getting too upset or angry to get it all out. Write them long letters, take a few days to do it so you get everything on them that you want to say. Then print them out and re-read. Mail them if you want, but I find that just the act of typing it all out and then printing it, then ripping it up, is very cathartic for me I've written many letters that no one saw but me My point is, it's up to YOU now. Yes, they were bad to you and yes, you deserved better. It's up to you to make your life better and it sounds like you'd be better off without those toxic people in it. HUGS!!
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12-31-2006, 12:37 PM | #12 |
Donating YT 3000 Club Member | i agree with everyone else i think you should forget about the past & think about the future ..... 'JeanieK' There is only so long you can use your child hood as an excuse for your poor decisions. i agree with this 100% |
12-31-2006, 01:54 PM | #13 | |
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unless you have walked in someone's shoes......you have NO idea what they have faced...... I say, move forward Kristy, and do not look back. | |
12-31-2006, 02:05 PM | #14 | |
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Kristy, I agree that happiness is a "choice". Don't wait one minute longer to make the best decision of your life. Your future is in YOUR hands.
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12-31-2006, 02:14 PM | #15 |
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| I like that! Very positive post.....good job!!! |
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