Has been such a brutal few years

[Tina21]

From having my hip replaced to two years of non-stop monitoring of my youngest daughter who developed a very serious eating disorder to discovering more health issues I am drained. I have been soooooo tired and having issues with all of the stress and started to see a therapist through the drs office. I saw a specialist for testing and she determined that I have bipolar disorder as well as PTSD. Its been a nightmare trying to get the right treatment. I am on meds #3 and so far they are useless. I have alternating bouts of insomnia and hypersomnia, up for as long as 40 hours and then at other times I sleep as long as 27 hours straight.

I thought that once I recovered from the last surgery that I would be back on my feet, then I thought once my daughter gets better (which although the medical community thought she wouldnt survive she is now on her way back and doing awesome ) that I would be back on my feet but now it looks like I have lost my feet lol.

I am so frustrated. I always worked and was always the person that other would remark "how do you manage to get so much done" about and now I feel utterly useless. I have been trying to work on making dog clothes which I love doing and setting up a website but am so damned tired that I get next to nothing done.

I have tried everything I can think of and now I guess I am looking for some prayers. Surely there has to be an end to all of this. Since 2007 its been one nightmare after another and I am praying that finally I can have a life again. Hope I dont sound like a whiney complainer I just really dont know what to do anymore. I truly believe in the power of prayer (my daughter is alive) and perhaps if a few of my friends here on YT can send one for me...

Thanks everyone,
Tina

[rubymoon2072]

oh my of course you deserve more than few!! sending prayers your way for strength and power to rise and make those feet do the things you desire to do. just try to take one thing at a time and stay focused with passion and the will to get a task completed. hugs.

[horsnaround]

Hang in there. So happy your daughter is doing better. Sending prayers

[rubynrosie]

For sure sending tons of prayers your way!!! Just as a side note, and maybe you are aware of this, but some meds for bi-polar and PTSD have the dreaded side affect of tiredness. Not just "oh I didn't get enough sleep last night" tiredness but one where it is very hard to get things done that a person could prior to medication. Be aware of that and talk to your doctor or mental health provider if you continue to feel very very tired or have extreme lack of motivation! Good luck!

[My lil friend]

I do so very much understand the stress of the last few years. Our path has been uphill for the past 5yrs. Yes,one storm after another. My heart hurts for you and I pray that you will have some peace. Blessings to you, may he that loves us and watches over us,fill your days with peace and joy.

[MandiesMom]

Wow! Look what you have been through already and are still living to fight another day! You are a lot stronger than you think you are, Tina. Keep fighting and leaning on Him. He'll give you the strength you need. Prayers going up for you!

[Patti]

Keeping you in my prayers. Life can be so hard.

[Wylie's Mom]

Oh Tina - I'm so sorry that you're still going through so much! I remember you telling us about what your daughter is going through too, and my heart just breaks for you both.

I don't know why life sometimes piles and piles and piles on top us for years on end, never giving us a break. It really can make it hard to keep going. But you *are* going! You clearly have tremendous, amazing strength, determination, faith, and HOPE - and you should be very proud of those qualities, and proud of your strong self for bearing all of this hardship.

I just know a break will come for you, I know it. Someday, you'll look back on this time of your life...and you won't remember it fondly, per se...but you will be able to acknowledge the wisdom you gained from it, and be grateful for the qualities inside you that got you through it. I so hope that 'break' comes very, very, very soon, my friend!

[celstu1]

Prayers going out to you Tina! I hope things start to get better, sounds like it's your turn for a little R&R from stress and disaster. (((HUGS)))

[Ldyrev1]

Hi Tina! You certainly did come to the right place. I will certainly add you to my prayer list. I know what it is like to have to deal with bi-polar as my younger brother has struggled with it for over 40 years and I have helped people get the counseling they needed when they were diagnosed. It can seem like a never ending battle but there is help that makes a difference. Please know that if your medication isn't doing what you need it to do, keep working with your doctors till they get it right. I know you will feel better when that is fixed. So there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it is not an oncoming train. LOL Bless your heart and don't be down on yourself. Do what you can, when you can and don't worry about the rest. You have come through events that would have floored anyone and this too shall pass. You will find resolution and there are much brighter days ahead. Peace & Blessings!!

[MauiGirl]

Life is not fair sometimes, and I hate it when so many hardships happen to one person. You have certainly had your share, and I also will pray that things turn around for you and things ALL get much better.

Just keep saying "this too shall pass", and surely it will. Hope what follows is much much better.

Hugs.

[chachi]

I have bipolar and what I did to try to get my meds in order was if it was a med that makes you tired I take it at night, then I sleep well but Im not tired during the day. Ask your doctor about that. It has made all the difference in the world to me and Ive been regulated on meds for yrs

[Verbena]

Wow you have been through a lot. You are a strong woman. You should be proud of yourself. We are all here for each other. That is the most wonderful thing about this forum. We are family. We are all here to give each other encouragement ,strength, guidance or even just a laugh if needed. Hugs and puppy kisses to you

[Tina21]

Thanks for all of the words of encouragement. I have an appointment to see my dr. I am no longer going to take these meds. I take them right before bed and they knock me out at least i hope thats what it is. I cant imagine being this tired forever. I am overwhemled by your support you brought tears to my eyes. Thanks again your wonderful

[rubynrosie]

Originally Posted by Tina21

Thanks for all of the words of encouragement. I have an appointment to see my dr. I am no longer going to take these meds. I take them right before bed and they knock me out at least i hope thats what it is. I cant imagine being this tired forever. I am overwhemled by your support you brought tears to my eyes. Thanks again your wonderful

Im so glad you are going ro talk to your doctor about your medications. I've kind of been where you are Tina. Different diagnosis but man the meds made me tired. It was hard to find the energy to do the things in life I loved doing much less the things I didn't like so much! Drag out tired all day long. That was over ten years ago. I changed from taking the meds in the morning to taking them at night. Then when that quit working I took them at 7 pm and that for awhile helped for at least morning hours. Then I had to add a med to help with the lack of motivation and now I've found a med I can take in the morning! Keep faith you will get the right med combination it just might take awhile. Don't be afraid to bring it up to your doctor until they get it right!! Good luck!!!