My darling Starr

[LunasMomma]

We recently lost our beloved Starr, on October 18th, she was only 3 years old.
She was vomiting and refusing to eat and the vet gave us anti-nausea
meds, which didn't work. We went back the next day, and he gave us
liquid Tagamet, which seemed to be working, though she still wouldn't
eat. That day, I happened to look under my bed and found a chewed up
pencil. So back to the vet the next day, for a series of Barium
xrays, which showed that there was no digestive movement. He
scheduled her for surgery the following morning, and it went great,
she was doing fine, though weak and shaky. They called me to pick
her up. By the way, I had been giving her Nutrical the whole time she was sick, it's probably the only reason she hung on so long.

I had this terrible feeling that she wasn't doing well, but the vet
techs all assured me that she was perfectly fine to go home, to just
leave her in her bed so she could rest. So I did, she was in my
daughter's room, in her bed on the floor, and I was cooking supper
for the family. She never looked this bad after being spayed, or
after being attacked by a pit bull and needing surgery for that. My
girl was TOUGH! But I ignored my gut and listened to the vet. My
poor daughter (she's 11) screamed that Starr was making funny noises,
and my husband and I rushed into the room, and I picked her up. She
was not responding to me at all. We rushed her to the emergency vet
clinic (our regular vet was closed for the evening) where they
pronounced her DOA. She suffered so much, and my heart is broken.
When we got home, we buried her and prayed.

The next day, I went to dispose of her bed and discovered that it was
drenched in her blood, almost soaked through the foam My poor
darling bled to death, and if I'd been sitting with her, maybe I
would have noticed it and gotten her help sooner. The guilt is
overwhelming me, and she was the center of the world to us.
I'm still having the worst time with this, as she was the light of my life,
and my very first dog. I never got to have a dog growing up, then we rented and weren't allowed dogs. The first thing we did when we closed on our house was to find a furbaby to love. GOD, I miss her so much I can't stand it.

Anyway, my husband thought that getting another puppy immediately
would help heal our hearts a little, so he drug me to a puppy store,
where he insisted on purchasing this poor little thing that looked so
sad and ill We almost lost her the second night we had her, she
had stopped eating and started vomiting, so back to the emergency
clinic we went, but this time they were able to help and they saved
her life. IV fluids and heat support overnight, ($730 later, eep!)
then to the pet store referred vet the next day. I thought for sure that we were cursed or something, to almost lose another baby would have sent me to the mental hospital or something.

Our little girl Luna is doing fantastic now and is full of pee and vinegar and eating like a champ! Turns out that the food they sent us home with was
expired by two months, no wonder she wouldn't eat! It smelled rancid upon closer inspection, wish we would have noticed it sooner We still can't get her to eat any kibble (we got Eukanuba small breed puppy), unless it's softened and mixed with some wet food, but that's another post.

Anyway, that's our story, sorry it's so long. Our energy is going
toward keeping this puppy healthy and happy, and she is precious.
Thanks for listening. I know that all of you that are
owned by Yorkies can understand how heartbreaking it can be to lose
one, and so young too

We bought a nice pen to keep her safe when we can't watch her, so we
never have to go through this again, I hope and pray.

Below are pics of Starr and Luna. Thanks for a great place for Yorkie lovers, I wish I could have found you sooner!!!!!!!

[Dragonfly]

Reading your story broke my heart.... I'm so sorry for your loss....


Your new baby is beautiful.

[IluvLucy]

Your story is so touching! I'm so sorry about your baby girl Starr, but at the same time, excited for you about Luna. I pray that all goes well for you and your new baby. Your hubby sounds like a very special person!

[Thorsmomma]

You've been thtough so much! Just don't balme yourself for what happened to Starr. You did all that yo could do, and she was lucky to have a loving home like yours.
I am glad you seem to be loving life with your new Luna. She is a doll and I'm sure it has helped ease some of the pain of loosing Starr. Thanks for sharing your story. It was very touching and I loved seeing the pics!

[dalexa]

Dont carry this blame, there is no way you could have known...
the vet is the profesional. Only..ONLY think of the positives,
you provided and loved her for three years and now you have
given (probably saved her life!) a precious baby a home...good
luck and remember...only think of the positives! They out-weigh
the negatives ten fold.

[Patti]

I am so sorry for your devastating loss of Starr. You did everything right. Luna is a little doll. Welcome you will love it here.

[simonandhallie]

Starr is beautiful and you did all you could. Your story is heartbreaking and I cannot even attempt to imagine the pain you have been through! She is in puppy heaven now playing and watching over you and her new sister.

Luna is a beauty and we are so happy to have you here at YT!

[soneal]

You poor thing, I am so sorry for your loss. I cried reading your story. I can't imagine losing one of mine. This is not your fault, please don't hold all of this guilt on your shoulders. You did all you should have. May God comfort you duting this loss.

[LunasMomma]

Thank you everyone. I have been reading here about all of the other Yorkies lost, it's so sad, and I'm so sorry for everyone that's gone through this too It does help to know that I'm not alone in my mourning. Luna helps a lot, keeping her healthy and happy takes a lot of my time and energy, otherwise I'd probably still be in bed.

I guess my hubby knew what he was doing by insisting on getting Luna, though I didn't agree with him at the time. He knows me better than I know myself sometimes!

[Roxie21]

It is so hard for me to read about your loss or anyones. I always end up crying and so upset. I am pray for you all. Starr will never be forgotten because she lives in you. Luna is a doll and I hope with all my that she gives you many many years of joy and happiness.

[LuvMySissy]

I am so sorry for your heartbreaking loss of Starr. But I'm glad to hear that Luna is in your life and you are taking great care of her and she is thriving!! Keep up the good work!!!

[LunasMomma]

Thank you all! It's a struggle, but I'm getting by.

Roxie21, I know what you mean. I've read all the heartbreaking stories here with tears coursing down my face. I feel so sad for everyone that has lost their little loves. But I feel that a burden shared is halved, while joy shared is multiplied

Our furbabies are so special to all of us!

[Shadow]

I'm so sorry for your loss.RIP little starr.

[Lexi Rae]

oh my god, im so sorry, my eyes are flooded in tears right now..

[bettyeanne]

I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your little Starr. God bless you and your family and comfort you as you mourn.

Tiny little Luna is in your life for a reason and I pray that she grows up to be a healthy, happy Yorkie girl. She is special and will soon own her own very special place in your hearts!