Deceased yorkie and Dreams

[tammy8833]

Hi everyone

Not sure if you remember a post of mine in January of this year. When I suddenly lost My Gidget. She was attacked in my yard, and we had to put her to sleep from her massive wounds.

I have had several dreams about her since her death that I want to talk to someone/anyone who might understand. I actually thought about looking for a someone who is a sensitive that could give me some insight, but I wouldn't know who to go to.

my first dream, I was in a strange house but it was "home" I called the dogs in and when I looked down there was Gidget I was excited I started yelling for my husband, "look, look!! its Gidget!! " I ran to her to pick her up and hug her but everything time I tried to to grab her it was hurting her. ( her wounds were the stomach, rump and throat) I couldn't grab her around the waist, I couldn't hug her.

my next dream, was like that dream you have when you are trying to dial a number for help but keep hitting the wrong number, know what I mean?? anyways...I had taken her to the vet and got a call she was ready to come home after her attack..i got there and she was bandaged and hair was growing back where she was shaved for surgery (she did not have surgery nor was she shaved) I kept trying to get her in the car and something would happen, I would get distracted with an erran, or the car would break down and we never made it home.

I had another brief dream where she was around but I still couldn't touch her.

About a month ago, I thought I was ready to move her remains and pics to the dinning room china cabinet and I had a dream where she was angry and mean...so out of character of her..my sister in law suggested that she wasn't ready for the move so I put her back in my bedroom with me.

I just had another dream..she was in my lap and I was unwrapping her bandages, she was completely healed, her hair was back to normal this time and I could finally hug her and hold her.

Gidget and me had a tight bond, that became much tighter a few years ago when she lost her vision in 1 eye in a fight with our other female. she was the most loyal dog I have ever had. she was my best friend and my protector all 12lbs. she would sleep on my feet and sometimes when my husband left early in the morning before it was light out, he would smack my bottom and she was bite the piss out of him...lol she just didn't realize it was him when it happened. she loved us both. in fact the night before the attack we were teasing who she loved more..because she was giving him a bath and she never bathed me. but she was always always by my side and she understood me.

my house was so empty when she was gone, we eventually got another puppy who is a great addition but that home is not the same at all. I miss her so very much, every day I think about her and its been 6 months...

I would love some feed back on these dreams that I had. if someone has had a similar experience, of if there is a sensitive on her that can explain it in more detail to me...
i think the last dream was my closure that i could finally hold her again but i don't understand the others, why i wasn't able to touch her.

thanks for reading

[Lil Sis]

I could really fell your pain over loosing your baby. I don't know the meaning of your dreams but I sense they have a lot to do with how much you are hurting.

I was thinking after I finished your post. My mother had many dreams that foretold the future. My family is from the area of south west Virginia/Eastern Tennessee. Mountains and the fokelore that is from that area. I was thinking how you felt the dreams had a meaning and then I glanced at where you were from! Virginia..i do understand.

I wish you luck in understanding, and in dealing with your loss.

[tammy8833]

thank you lil sis...i still get emotional often...that song by Miranda lambert OVER YOU..is one of my favorites but now i cry when i hear it


I MISS my dog...

[tammy8833]

heres gidget

[wemple2]

So sorry you're still hurting so bad from your loss of Gidget. It is never easy to lose one so loved, especially tragically. I was always told that if you dream of a deceased loved one, it is because there was something left unfinished. In your case, she was taken away too soon...so obviously the two of you did have unfinished "business". I think you need to take the time and say goodbye to her, tell her you will always love her and miss her very much...she can never be replaced in your heart, although your heart is big enough to love another as well (the new pup). I hope you can find it in your heart to finally have closure. Talk to Gidget...get everything out, I think you'll feel better. Sending you a hug...

[tammy8833]

hi wemple

i started to tear up reading your post..2 things pop out to me...i don't want to say good bye...but i do talk to her often

the thought of saying good bye is so heart breaking still

thank u

[bjh]

What you went though with Gidget was a traumatic experience. It is hard enough to lose a beloved pet under any circumstances but what you went though was horrible. I feel you are suffering from a form of Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD): Symptoms - MayoClinic.com

My oldest daughter is suffering from PTSD because of all the brain surgeries she had several years ago and all the horrible things she saw when she was in the hospital. She has finally got professional help and it has helped her a lot.

I don't think you will ever completely get over that tragic day but I pray with time you will do better. Just try to think of the good times you had with Gidget.

[Lil Sis]

Originally Posted by tammy8833

thank you lil sis...i still get emotional often...that song by Miranda lambert OVER YOU..is one of my favorites but now i cry when i hear it


I MISS my dog...

I understand, I hurt for you. (((hugs)))

I also agree on top of the missing your dog you may have ptsd. I know you will never forget her, but I hope you find peace.

[tammy8833]

hi bjh

i never thought of it that way. when i held her after she passed i had never felt so destroyed. i sobbed and sobbed so hard...i just couldn't believe she wasn't gonna make it, and to have to give permission to take her life, my best friends life has been a terrible guilt at times.

i just want her back...

im so happy ur daughter has made progress and is healing

[yorkietalkjilly]

I just know that pain and grief can cause all kinds of dreams. I have them when I'm especially agitated or having problems dealing with ongoing mental anguish. When I am more upset, unsettled or worried about something or in terrible emotional pain from any kind of serious loss in my life, I can dream these kinds of dreams. I dream them where I am often in a very unsettling situation in the dream with the object of the dream and much of what is happening seems beyond me or anything that I can do to effect meaningful change or fix anything. The dreams are often so frightening or upsetting as to wake me during the worst part. I guess it is just the mind dealing even in sleep with the thoughts, frustrations and distress we've had lately in our lives due to a painful situation and since we aren't awake to think more logically, maybe the mind just puts random things together reflecting the angst of the overwhelming or worrying situation. Sometimes during especially bad times in life, the dreams themselves aren't even about the thing or person or loved one I'm worried so about but about some other bad thing entirely. And yet they still seem to reflect or approximate some of the fears and emotions that the real situation in my life has been stirring up. And at times the bad dream will have a very good section like when your baby is healed up and seemingly okay - and then - poof - it's all gone or ends oddly, leaving you awfully torn up that that perfect outcome was there and then just vanished, exposing how vulnerable and out of control of the situation we felt going through it. Maybe your dreams are just your mind still trying to process a tragedy after months of living with the horror of what you went through with your baby, ending in her loss after such a hard and agonizing decision, plus the grief you're still living with, even while asleep, process some agonizing feelings and questions that have been circling around in the brain intensely since the awful event, and these all suddenly surface into a crazy mental lark of the imagination(dream) in the semi-conscious mind while your guard is down and your logic "turned off". That's what I usually chalk mine up to.

[wemple2]

Originally Posted by tammy8833

hi wemple

i started to tear up reading your post..2 things pop out to me...i don't want to say good bye...but i do talk to her often

the thought of saying good bye is so heart breaking still

thank u

Please call me Kathy. There is nothing wrong with not wanting to say goodbye to Gidget, it's only natural. But I feel until you are able to do it...the dreams may continue. She wants to know that you are ok, it's in her nature to worry about your well being. Never forget her, the memories you should cherish, smile through your tears for now, but always smile when you think of her. Again, you went through a horrible ordeal...she doesn't want you to feel bad. She's still loving you, it's only from long distance now...your heavenly angel...your protector...she'll always, always be watching over you.

[tammy8833]

Originally Posted by yorkietalkjilly

I just know that pain and grief can cause all kinds of dreams. I have them when I'm especially agitated or having problems dealing with ongoing mental anguish. When I am more upset, unsettled or worried about something or in terrible emotional pain from any kind of serious loss in my life, I can dream these kinds of dreams. I dream them where I am often in a very unsettling situation in the dream with the object of the dream and much of what is happening seems beyond me or anything that I can do to effect meaningful change or fix anything. The dreams are often so frightening or upsetting as to wake me during the worst part. I guess it is just the mind dealing even in sleep with the thoughts, frustrations and distress we've had lately in our lives due to a painful situation and since we aren't awake to think more logically, maybe the mind just puts random things together reflecting the angst of the overwhelming or worrying situation. Sometimes during especially bad times in life, the dreams themselves aren't even about the thing or person or loved one I'm worried so about but about some other bad thing entirely. And yet they still seem to reflect or approximate some of the fears and emotions that the real situation in my life has been stirring up. And at times the bad dream will have a very good section like when your baby is healed up and seemingly okay - and then - poof - it's all gone or ends oddly, leaving you awfully torn up that that perfect outcome was there and then just vanished, exposing how vulnerable and out of control of the situation we felt going through it. Maybe your dreams are just your mind still trying to process a tragedy after months of living with the horror of what you went through with your baby, ending in her loss after such a hard and agonizing decision, plus the grief you're still living with, even while asleep, process some agonizing feelings and questions that have been circling around in the brain intensely since the awful event, and these all suddenly surface into a crazy mental lark of the imagination(dream) in the semi-conscious mind while your guard is down and your logic "turned off". That's what I usually chalk mine up to.

that makes sense, its almost like im going through the day in slow motion by the dreams breaking the time frame up...first the injury, then the talk of resolving it, and then her passing when she lets me hug her again

[tammy8833]

Originally Posted by wemple2

Please call me Kathy. There is nothing wrong with not wanting to say goodbye to Gidget, it's only natural. But I feel until you are able to do it...the dreams may continue. She wants to know that you are ok, it's in her nature to worry about your well being. Never forget her, the memories you should cherish, smile through your tears for now, but always smile when you think of her. Again, you went through a horrible ordeal...she doesn't want you to feel bad. She's still loving you, it's only from long distance now...your heavenly angel...your protector...she'll always, always be watching over you.

Kathy, something about your writing, your posting makes me cry everytime..not in a bad way mind you, it just touches me deeply.

Thank you

[wemple2]

Most of us, including me, have lost a beloved pet, even from natural causes it is difficult. I have to admit it was the number one most difficult thing I have ever gone through, and trust me I have lost many loved ones. Smile for me, ok? Even if through your tears, keep smiling. Because eventually, when you think about Gidget...it will be the precious memories and you know what, you'll smile, there will be no more tears.

[My lil friend]

I am so sorry that your heart still hurts deeply. I do understand,Bunkey was my heart. I would see him out of the corner of my eye frequently after he passed. It has been a little over 2yrs sense Bunkey became very ill and I had to make the same decision. We now have Mina and the two of us are bonding. I still think of Bunkey alot,but the pain is not as much. When I feel like I need to talk about Bunkey,I talk to Mina and tell her how wonderful he was. It seems to help. I hope that time will allow you to bond to your new baby.