Mother's Day will be a year since I lost my Precious Zoe - YorkieTalk.com Forums

halesmom · 03-30-2008, 08:35 AM

I know I am new to the group and I have two other yorkies one 5 years old and one 3 months old...but I lost my baby last Mother's Day and it kills me to talk about the puppy and never mention Zoe. Zoe was my heart my life...my baby. She was born in my house and I raised her from her first breathe...She was a happy go lucky puppy just like any other yorkie I have every raised...until I took her in to get her first shots....At that time the vet realized that she had a PDA which is a shunt in the heart that all puppies are born with (it is what sends the oxygenated blood through their bodies while in the womb) but they are supposed to close up within the first weeks of birth...They referred me to several different vets and they all pretty much told me to put her down or have surgery done to repair it...So I contacted Auburn to try to get the sugery done but they wouldn't do it because she was too small... so I proceeded to try to get her to grow...my local vet put her on prescription food and even though they all said she wouldnt make it past 7 months old....SHE DID...she was a completely normal acting puppy...THEN....when she turned 8 months old she had a seizure...she went into the hospital for days and the vet finally told me I could take her home but she would be in a hospice state for the rest of her life...and be blind...when I got her home and she heard Abby I put her down right in front of her and when Abby took off running and playing so did Zoe...within 24 hours she could see again and was her old self again...she had spells off and on her whole life but only for like 24 hours and then it would be months before she would have another one....the spells were not horrible I could see them coming and I would give her the meds and she wouldn't go into the seizure just would be lazy for a day....then 3 and a half years later....she started having apnea in the night...she got up the next morning and ate and my hubby was going to take her to the vet for me as I had to go to work...He got up and was getting ready...by the time I got to work she was seizuring...The vet met him at the office and got her to stop seizuring but she didn't pull through the following night...so I got the call Mother's Day morning. I miss her so much. This baby did everything with me...EVEN SHOWERS...no kidding she was there for me when I took my showers...she slept by me in the bed...everything I was so protective of her that I think she became closer to me than any others just because I worried about her so much. I carried her everywhere...she only weight 2lbs 3 oz when she passed away...I had her cremated so that I will always have her with me...And I think about her everyday... Anyway, I guess I feel guilty talking about Abby and our new addition Lexi without mentioning Zoe because Zoe was the biggest part of our lives...I just wanted to share that with everyone...

Thank you
Loving and Missing my Zoe forever...here is a pic of Zoe

LillieDoodle · 03-30-2008, 08:43 AM

I am so sorry to hear about little Zoe. I know how heartbreaking it is to lose one - as I just did. It is amazing how you think nothing could happen to your baby and it does. My heart goes out to you.

YorkichonBella · 03-30-2008, 08:44 AM

Thanks for sharing your story of Zoe and her pic. What a wonderful little miracle baby that lived against all odds & a loving Mom that took such dear care of her. You never gave up on her. No wonder your heart is forever full for the special little girl who gave so much LOVE back!

RIP Angel Zoe

She has now touched my Heart as well this morning.

a2luckygirl · 03-30-2008, 08:54 AM

Oh, you were such a wonderful Mother to your special baby Zoe! I am sure you miss her- and she will be in your heart for ever!
Hugs to you!

halesmom · 03-30-2008, 09:31 AM

Thank you so much you guys... You made me feel better. You are all a great group of people... I am glad to know that Zoe is still touching hearts...

I still pray for her every night...And I talk to her urn like she is still with me.

Jeri Cunningham · 03-30-2008, 09:45 AM

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Originally Posted by halesmom

I know I am new to the group and I have two other yorkies one 5 years old and one 3 months old...but I lost my baby last Mother's Day and it kills me to talk about the puppy and never mention Zoe. Zoe was my heart my life...my baby. She was born in my house and I raised her from her first breathe...She was a happy go lucky puppy just like any other yorkie I have every raised...until I took her in to get her first shots....At that time the vet realized that she had a PDA which is a shunt in the heart that all puppies are born with (it is what sends the oxygenated blood through their bodies while in the womb) but they are supposed to close up within the first weeks of birth...They referred me to several different vets and they all pretty much told me to put her down or have surgery done to repair it...So I contacted Auburn to try to get the sugery done but they wouldn't do it because she was too small... so I proceeded to try to get her to grow...my local vet put her on prescription food and even though they all said she wouldnt make it past 7 months old....SHE DID...she was a completely normal acting puppy...THEN....when she turned 8 months old she had a seizure...she went into the hospital for days and the vet finally told me I could take her home but she would be in a hospice state for the rest of her life...and be blind...when I got her home and she heard Abby I put her down right in front of her and when Abby took off running and playing so did Zoe...within 24 hours she could see again and was her old self again...she had spells off and on her whole life but only for like 24 hours and then it would be months before she would have another one....the spells were not horrible I could see them coming and I would give her the meds and she wouldn't go into the seizure just would be lazy for a day....then 3 and a half years later....she started having apnea in the night...she got up the next morning and ate and my hubby was going to take her to the vet for me as I had to go to work...He got up and was getting ready...by the time I got to work she was seizuring...The vet met him at the office and got her to stop seizuring but she didn't pull through the following night...so I got the call Mother's Day morning. I miss her so much. This baby did everything with me...EVEN SHOWERS...no kidding she was there for me when I took my showers...she slept by me in the bed...everything I was so protective of her that I think she became closer to me than any others just because I worried about her so much. I carried her everywhere...she only weight 2lbs 3 oz when she passed away...I had her cremated so that I will always have her with me...And I think about her everyday... Anyway, I guess I feel guilty talking about Abby and our new addition Lexi without mentioning Zoe because Zoe was the biggest part of our lives...I just wanted to share that with everyone...

Thank you
Loving and Missing my Zoe forever...here is a pic of Zoe

I'm so sorry you had to go thru that. I too had a PDA baby it was our Pom/Chi mix Rusty. We got him for 150.00 and spent 5000.00 fixing his heart. I wish you could have had as happy an ending as we did.

Our little Rusty will be 10 in October and the open heart surgery was very sucessful. I know how hard it was as his first two years were very difficult hoping he would first gain enough weight to have surgery the make it through it.

My prayers are with you and may precious little Zoe be whole and healthy at Rainbow Bridge....

halesmom · 03-30-2008, 11:35 AM

You are so lucky to have been able to have the surgery done for him. About two weeks ago I went to a Yorkshire Terrier Rescue group and they had a 2 month old puppy who had a PDA too...I was trying to adopt her since I had yorkie experience and experience with the PDA but they wouldn't adopt to the Florida area...BROKE MY HEART...anyway they were really friendly and kept me updated on her...well she had her surgery to fix it (I was shocked that the vet would do the surgery with her still being under two pounds and that young but they did) and she didn't make it. So on one hand I am glad they would not do the surgery on Zoe being so little and so young because I wouldn't have got to enjoy her for all those years if she passed as a baby...on the other hand I wonder if I could have found another university that would have done it and saved my baby...

Grizzley Bear · 03-30-2008, 09:48 PM

Thank you for sharing your story. It really touched my heart. A beautifil life you gave to Zoe. Hugs to you and you babies. They are blessed to have you as was your Zoe.

mogli · 03-31-2008, 02:04 PM

I do the same thing! I bought a really nice box for Mogli and put some his papers, a few toys and his collar in the box also. Every night when I get in bed I put my hand on there and talk to him ...

Sorry about your girl

... she fought a good fight!

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Originally Posted by halesmom

Thank you so much you guys... You made me feel better. You are all a great group of people... I am glad to know that Zoe is still touching hearts...

I still pray for her every night...And I talk to her urn like she is still with me.

RoxyJosMom · 04-03-2008, 06:35 PM

I'm so sorry you lost your precious Zoe. She was adorable and she was very lucky to have had you for her Mommy. She is running thru the fields of flowers with lots of other puppies over the bridge while she waits for you. Hugs.

xxmxaxrxyxx · 04-09-2008, 08:51 AM

aww this bought tears to my eye....i am so sorry for you loss...my heart goes out to you and your family in this time of need.

03-30-2008, 08:43 AM	#2
LillieDoodle Donating Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Maryland Posts: 350	I am so sorry to hear about little Zoe. I know how heartbreaking it is to lose one - as I just did. It is amazing how you think nothing could happen to your baby and it does. My heart goes out to you. __________________ Nikki - and the girls Lillie, Gracie, Bella(RIP) My Sweet Pea Lillie dogster.com/dogs/655937

03-30-2008, 08:44 AM	#3
YorkichonBella Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: NC Posts: 1,047	Thanks for sharing your story of Zoe and her pic. What a wonderful little miracle baby that lived against all odds & a loving Mom that took such dear care of her. You never gave up on her. No wonder your heart is forever full for the special little girl who gave so much LOVE back! RIP Angel Zoe She has now touched my Heart as well this morning. __________________ (Mommy's little babyBella) (Granma-ma's sweet boyCole & brave boy Noah)

03-30-2008, 08:54 AM	#4
a2luckygirl YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: RIGHT NOW- MO! Posts: 1,946	Oh, you were such a wonderful Mother to your special baby Zoe! I am sure you miss her- and she will be in your heart for ever! Hugs to you! __________________ :I PLAYING....THE BANJO........ AND KISSING MY MOMMY GO TEAM EMMA

03-30-2008, 09:48 PM	#8
Grizzley Bear Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Sacramento Posts: 496	Thank you for sharing your story. It really touched my heart. A beautifil life you gave to Zoe. Hugs to you and you babies. They are blessed to have you as was your Zoe. __________________ A + = My Grizzley Bear 10/12/95 to 10/10/2007:

04-03-2008, 06:35 PM	#10
RoxyJosMom Love The Verminator! Donating Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: PA Posts: 3,912	I'm so sorry you lost your precious Zoe. She was adorable and she was very lucky to have had you for her Mommy. She is running thru the fields of flowers with lots of other puppies over the bridge while she waits for you. Hugs. __________________ Roxy loves Alphy Remi loves Millie ORDER YOUR YT COOKBOOK TODAY

03-30-2008, 09:31 AM	#5
halesmom Yorkie Talker Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Milton, Florida Posts: 16	Thank you so much you guys... You made me feel better. You are all a great group of people... I am glad to know that Zoe is still touching hearts... I still pray for her every night...And I talk to her urn like she is still with me.

03-30-2008, 11:35 AM	#7
halesmom Yorkie Talker Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Milton, Florida Posts: 16	You are so lucky to have been able to have the surgery done for him. About two weeks ago I went to a Yorkshire Terrier Rescue group and they had a 2 month old puppy who had a PDA too...I was trying to adopt her since I had yorkie experience and experience with the PDA but they wouldn't adopt to the Florida area...BROKE MY HEART...anyway they were really friendly and kept me updated on her...well she had her surgery to fix it (I was shocked that the vet would do the surgery with her still being under two pounds and that young but they did) and she didn't make it. So on one hand I am glad they would not do the surgery on Zoe being so little and so young because I wouldn't have got to enjoy her for all those years if she passed as a baby...on the other hand I wonder if I could have found another university that would have done it and saved my baby...

04-09-2008, 08:51 AM	#11
xxmxaxrxyxx BANNED FROM SHOPPING!! Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Wichita, KS Posts: 9,179 Blog Entries: 4	aww this bought tears to my eye....i am so sorry for you loss...my heart goes out to you and your family in this time of need. __________________ Kaine Kandie Tootsie Yoshiko MeiLing Kioko Tootsie Smokey \|\| Yoshi Mochi \|\| MeiLing Kacy \|\| Kioko is still searching for his Cinderella.