My darling is gone

[Maggie08]

I recently came across this site and it is such a joy to see that I'm not the only one who loves their yorkies so much. My darling baby girl, (12) Pixie, died in my arms two days ago. I am so devastated I just can't cope with it. I have a physical pain in my heart. She was everything to me. She had seen me through so many bad and sad days and never failed to cheer me up. I don't know how I'm going to cope without her. I have a lot of health problems and she was the only reason I got up in the morning. She was a part of every routine I have. And I didn't even realise until last week how sick she was.

On March 13th last, she vomited over three times and when I looked at her gums she was extremely pale and her heart was beating very slowly. I thought maybe she was going to have a heart attack, but then I assumed it was just the nausea she was feeling. But she came around from it and was lethargic but her colour returned. I took her to the vet and he said it was probably something she ate and gave her some antibiotic cover. She seemed to be coming back to herself the next few days but on the night of March 16 she had another episode and then began to cough and breathe heavily. I took her to the vet as soon as he opened and he said her heart was under pressure and gave her a diuretic and anti-inflammatory injection and told me to bring her back the next day. So I did. Saw the chief vet who said she had serious lung infection. My heart almost stopped when he said to prepare myself for the worst. He said it was most unusual for dogs to get lower respiratory infections so there must be an underlying cause. He gave her steroid and antibiotic injection for two days in a row. Her breathing continued to be laboured but her spirits were really high and I prayed she was getting better. On Friday night she was again in high spirits. She ate very well but was drinking a lot. I put her to bed around 1am and when I woke at 2.30am she had been sick in her bed and I just knew something was desperately wrong. I lifted her up, she made the most heart-breaking retching sound and went limp in my arms and died. She obviously had a heart attack. I began to wail. How could this happen so fast? I've never experienced something so heartbreaking in my life. I am so devestated. She never gave an indication she was unwell. The only thing she used to do was cough a little after she ate or drank water. I feel so guilty that I didn't notice before this and get her heart treated. The vet never mentioned that she might have heart trouble. How am I going to get through this? Has anybody ever had their beloved die of a heart attack? Are her symptoms familiar to anybody?

I am so sorry for this long post but I am going to burst if I can't get it out. Please help me.

[QBeez]

I am so sorry for you loss...I don't know what I would do if my yorkie Mia died...

Rest In Peace little Pixie

[Jody Renfroe]

Oh, Honey...I'm so sorry you lost your little Pixie. All of us here have known the sorrow of losing one of our babies. The grief seems unbearable at times. I know your little girl loved you very much and you did all that you could for her. Just remember her sweet kisses and that she wouldn't want her Mommy to be sad for too long. Hugs to you!

[KathyinCali]

My heart is breaking for you right now. Sending warm healing wishes your way...

[Sugar's Mom]

i am so sorry for your loss. it is always so very hard when we lose our little ones.

[a2luckygirl]

I am so sorrt for your losss ig your little one!I am sure after 12 yrs together- you miss her every min.
Prayers and Hugs for you!

[Yorkie Luv of 3]

I am So Sorry for your loss,, how heart breaking,,,

[Jeri Cunningham]

I am so very sorry for your loss, it is so hard to get over losing a beloved pet. I know exactly what your going through. Our Lab/shepard mix had a stroke and our only option was to put him down. He was 14 years old and it happened overnight. That was almost 3 years ago and it does get easier.

Just remember you were holding Pixie and she died feeling your love.... Maybe she waited to say goodbye so when you picked her up the sound was her goodbye to you.

Take comfort in knowing she will be waiting at Raindow Bridge for you.....

[Sunnie]

I am so sorry. I can feel your heartache. I felt this when I lost my Ginger who I had for 15 years. I hope you will feel some comfort in knowing that she surely KNEW how very much you loved her.
Bless you
Sonya

[MIZBROWN]

Sorry for your loss...

[RMKC]

I dont know what to say, other then my heart is breaking for you, i am soo sorry i just hope you find a little comfort in knowing , some day you will be reunited again with your precious Baby. I am shure she knew how much you loved her ! Hugs RIP Sweet Angel !

[ryorkies]

It is so painful to say good-by to a beloved pet and my heart aches for you.
Please accept our heartfelt condolences and we are so sorry for your loss.
Hugs from all of us here.......

[Bizzymammabee]

Ohh honey..my sincerest and most heart felt condolences on the passing of your baby. Please keep the good memories you accumulated during the years you shared with her and remember her that way. Know that you loved her and cherished her those years it helps to ease some of the pain. It's what gets me through the days since I lost my own baby on New Years Eve. I was abit unfortunate that I didn't have but one year with my baby ..but the memories we made are lasting. They are helping me heal.

[jrsygal37]

Maggie. I am so very sorry. I know it is not consolation but she died in your arms and knew you loved her. At least you were with her and she was not alone at the vets. I lost my 10 year old Newman over the summer. He had cancer that had spread to his liver. He was my first Yorkie and I had to put him to sleep. Elaine

[I Love Bailey]

I am so sorry!
How heartbreaking for you!
At least she knew how much you loved her & she died knowing that you were there for her.

Sending Prayers & Angels to you!