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Today, my heart is still so torn up because not only did I lost my baby girl ASTI.. I KILLED HER.. MY action caused her death..
I left the big gate open and she was outside and she fell in the fish pond and drowned..MY CARE--LESS-NESS CAUSED-HER -DEATH..
I do not know what came over me . I have never been that stupid before
I have watched that little girl so carefully for years now that I do not what to do with myself. this morning, this afternoon.. I also keep thinking to myself what if that was one of my grandchildren???
Have I become so fibble minded.????????????
I know some of my tears is sorrow is self pitty but, how do you stop those feelings???
I am lost today...My other pets have helped alot being here I won't even let them go out to the big yard now and the fish pond will be removed
(it is only a little 4in deep black plastic tub).. but my yorkies are to tiny to get out if the fall in..
Bless you all that have giving me your thoughts and love through this time.
MAYBE TOMMORROW WILL BE A BETTR DAY.