Brenda, I am so sorry.
I know nothing anyone can say will make you feel better...it takes time.
My heart was broken when I lost 2 of Mikayla's three babies her last litter...I was so depressed for a couple days, and it isn't a bit easy.
You're 100% correct, people need to REALLY think about this before they decide to breed, it is always a sad possibility, and I HATE that it happened to you and your poor Meiah.
Can you maybe give her one or two of Macey's pups so that she won't be so upset? They're only a week or two now, right?
Again, I am so sorry, and if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I just went through this, and I know how horrible it makes you feel. Just remember, there was NOTHING else you could've done. That baby was just too big and the little one had a deformity that couldn't be helped. You did NOTHING wrong...thank God you were there for Meiah, just think about that. You probably saved HER life!